If Only

If only I could grab you
and wrap you tightly in my arms.
If only I had strength enough
to sweep you off your feet.
If only you weren’t so far away.
If only your words didn’t seem
to float just outside my grasp.
If only I knew the magic words
to make it all just seem okay.
If only I knew how to apologize
and not push the moment over the edge.
If only I could know exactly what you
feel,
What you think.

Then maybe I’d be a better partner.
If only I wasn’t so bad already.